What a year. As I’m writing this, many recent developments in my life are coming to mind. From experiments on the body through flexibility training, to vegetarianism, to setting up next sculpture project in collaboration with best selling author Fred Delavier, a shift is definitely starting to happen. A special someone has even had my name tattooed on her neck! Talking about being honored.
Last week I was in Nice – France. Since one month I was feeling the need to take a few days off somewhere, in order to take time to think. The choice of the French Riviera was motivated by the opportunity to meet my friend Keith Ferrazzi, who had sent me a note a few weeks earlier saying he was going to be there mid April.
Spending time with Keith really brought something to the surface. And it caught me by surprise. Keith carries generosity to such an extent (especially his genuine care about others, and words of encouragement I will never forget) that it literally put myself in front of the last block separating me from my dream life: Learning to receive from life as much as I give to it.
Here’s a little background on what was causing this block:
For as far as I remember I’ve always felt like an alien from another planet. Not a big deal, being different is actually great in today’s world. When I was a kid then teenager I just didn’t know it, and instead my environment sent me the message that being brilliant can hurt people around me (well, it was my interpretation of a few events in my childhood). Of course it is the opposite of the truth, and my urge to cultivate this uniqueness was so strong, not expressing it was out of question. As a result I started to keep my abilities and talents secret, not exposing them to the world. Gradually growing self-concious because of this inner conflict between a huge desire to express my talents, and a background fear to hurt people with it. Sounds crazy, does it? For years I conditioned myself to hide a big part of my creative personality, becoming protective, preferring to lock this up in a secret garden to keep researching instead of actively looking for people who would encourage me to develop this gift (in fact I discovered the existence of such people quite late).
On a spiritual perspective, I created this limitations as a chid in order to transcend them. Now is the time.
Looking back, it’s no wonder why I joined Keith’s online Greenlight Community a few years ago, motivated by the desire to find like minded individuals.
In those recent years I’ve met a lot of people, but it appears that for my purest/highest aspirations (art, generosity, living my dream life..), making things happen requires to develop relationships with the kind of people who want to make a difference in this world. People who know legacy is all there is in the end.
To me the symbol of this few days spent with Keith is the key turning point where I chose to leave limitations behind, and confidently start to walk (run!) toward my dreams and ambitions. Dreams about creating major projects to inspire the World (through Art and whatever my creative impulses will bring me), embracing generosity as a lifestyle (this one is an unexpected #1), and in the process accessing to the social level I belong to, the elite.
So right now I’m working on developing an attitude aligned with my vision. Working on confidence, erasing self limiting beliefs (experimenting with hypnosis in two weeks), and most of all learning to accept the best that life can offer. Accepting the fact that I deserve it. Good news is, the adjustment is not huge, it is more like opening eyes to finally see reality.
It’s not everyday that I meet a person who make me think that by modeling him I will become a better man, for myself and for others. Keith is an artist, his craft/material of choice is not clay or creating sculptures. His art is developing relationships that make everyone grow through generosity. I admire that in him as much as he admires my art. And I am thrilled by our shared vision of joining forces for future projects that will make a difference in the World.
To dreams reborn…
A special thought to my parents and to Charlaine, without your support I wouldn’t be able to become the man I am in the process of becoming. To my dear friend Cynthia Occelli, you are always here when I need guidance. You are right, “life gives us what we give to it”.
In the French Riviera, two friends enjoying the best France has to offer.